one of those lists i thought i'd never do

Since I have so much to say, but never seem to find the time to post about it...
I'll cop out (do people say that anymore?) and do this:
-borrowed from E & RG-

I AM: uhh...already having trouble with this first one!
I WANT: to travel more
I WISH: i could sing. i mean, really sing
I HATE: that i can't always do the things for the kids that i'd like to do
I MISS: my mom
I FEAR: leaving my family too soon
I HEAR: the birdies chirping outside my window right now
I WONDER: what the future holds. i really do.
I REGRET: so much. i know it's unhealthy, but...
I AM NOT: Billy Crystal's character in Monster's Inc
I DANCE: in the kitchen with my hubs
I SING: badly. sometimes in harmony (badly) with my hubs
I CRY: from sadness too often
I AM NOT ALWAYS: sure what to make for dinner
I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: magic, according to you-know-who
I WRITE: easily, when it's for myself
I CONFUSE: these two boys at school. they are not related and look exactly alike!
I NEED: to let go of my regrets
I SHOULD: get more organized
I START: to do something and then forget. :-/
I FINISH: tasks on time at work, but not at home...
I TAG: nobody!

Waves

Back home after a perfectly wonderful getaway. My brain is racing in all directions and I'm uberoverwhelmed with it all. It felt so good to not have to THINK for a few days. Which wine should we order? Should we walk this way, or that along the beach? Ahh, it felt a relief really.

I snapped hundreds of pictures. The drive was so scenic. Colorful.
A treat to the eyes and mind.


The setting when we arrived was lovely beyond words....


It was cloudy and cool but we were grateful it wasn't raining so we could walk the beach without getting soaked. (and without getting my camera wet. heaven forbid!) We found ourselves hypnotized by the ocean. You know how that is? It's like staring into a campfire... only not. The rhythm of the waves crashing on the rocks and the way they make patterns on the beach as they go in and back out again......








We ate and drank. We walked and explored. We visited wineries and just had a blast! It was relaxing and renewing and really, really fun to be away from it all. I needed the escape.










The kids and cats were just fine this time, but coming home still had its usual dose of reality. This week will be a difficult one at work. I'll write more about that later. Also, I got some sad news about a friend...One of our teachers just learned she has cancer - quite advanced. I'm so sad and scared for her. I know what she's facing now, and I want so much to tell her everything is going to be okay. I'll tell her that. I hope it will be...

An adventure!

Tomorrow morning we hit the road and head to beautiful Cambria and Moonstone Beach. Rain is forecasted for all 3 days, which could really put a damper on the hiking and exploring that is a must-do in Cambria. I'm the lover of rain, so I guess I shouldn't complain... We'll visit the wineries and walk the beach when there are breaks in the rain. It's just so beautiful and peaceful there. There's a slow pace about things and the beauty of the ocean just revives you. I'm looking forward to capturing some of that beauty with my new camera.

The last time Don and I had an adventure, we were in Lake Tahoe. We had a most glorious time. Meanwhile back home all hell was breaking loose... My daughter and her dad were hitting crisis mode. This situation stressed out my son, along with the overflowing toilet flood. Reality smacked us in the face as soon as we returned. I fear the same thing brewing with this outing.
*heavy sighhh*

But, here we are...all packed and ready to go. We'll just sleep on it and we're off!

We shall return. With pictures. :-)

I kind of figured this would happen...

Writer's block. or something like that.

I have a journal.. a personal blog that I started when the shit hit the fan a little over a year ago. I wanted a blog that was just for me. I offered my husband the link, but he never read it. He felt it was my own place and wanted me to keep it that way. When I was writing for no one but myself, the words would flow easily. I could write easily about whatever was in my head. I was writing just for me, but sometimes wanted to share bits and pieces of it.

Now, I've started this blog and already I've nothing to say. Much of what's in my head revolves around my family. My children don't "get" my online friendships and would feel betrayed if I were to write about them here. But it's not just that. For some reason, just knowing somebody might be reading, I'm speechless. (not that ANYbody is probably reading...I sent invites to several friends who haven't popped by. ho hum)

Last week Don told me he read my blog. He told me it was everything he loves about me. He told me that it made him laugh and brought tears. He said I was brilliant and funny. (Imagine that!) I haven't written a word since.

I amVERY excited, though. I have a new camera. :-) Pictures to follow....

okay, maybe one now.