Keep the change
Change. I've always thought of myself as one who welcomes change. New places. New people. New things. Change in direction. It's all good.
Or, is it?
I think I've realized otherwise. I like change as long as I'M the one who's in charge of it. If *I* decide it's time for a change, that's great! But when things change without my permission? When changes come along that I have no control over? I don't like it one bit.
My school opened 8 years ago and since that time it's been my happy little home. I've worked with two wonderful girls who are like family. DB and I have been friends since our kids were in 2nd & 3rd grade. SB, DB and I are a team. We work SO well together. We get the job done and have too much fun doing it! Another job opportunity came up and SB has left us. :-( She did what she had to do (and left kicking and screaming. if it wasn't for the pay increase and incredible potential, she'd never have left) and I'm very proud of her. But, I'm (we're) just miserable without her. Ugh. She was our office manager and ran the office so smoothly and efficiently with one hand tied behind her back and both eyes closed. Now, we're scrambling to get through each day. What account does this come out of? Will payroll get done and will the staff get paid?? How on EARTH did she do all of this???
I want things back the way they were.
*pout*
I've been so busy lately. Work is a mess and there's so much going on around here and I've been having too many sleepless nights. Well, not sleepless, but sleep-not-enough. I stare up at the ceiling. Toss and turn. Close my eyes and pretend...but I just can't sleep! My mind is on overload. It seems like I can think so much clearer at night like that. In the morning when I recall the night before, the thoughts are all mumbo jumbo. Scrambled brains.
Tomorrow is Mother's Day. I dreamed about Mom again last night. I was sooo happy to see her! sighhh.. I've been thinking of her a lot. I have lots of thoughts I need to sort out. I was going to do that here, but I'm not up for it tonight. I'm already looking forward to tomorrow morning's cuppa joe.
First, though, to get some sleep...
Or, is it?
I think I've realized otherwise. I like change as long as I'M the one who's in charge of it. If *I* decide it's time for a change, that's great! But when things change without my permission? When changes come along that I have no control over? I don't like it one bit.
My school opened 8 years ago and since that time it's been my happy little home. I've worked with two wonderful girls who are like family. DB and I have been friends since our kids were in 2nd & 3rd grade. SB, DB and I are a team. We work SO well together. We get the job done and have too much fun doing it! Another job opportunity came up and SB has left us. :-( She did what she had to do (and left kicking and screaming. if it wasn't for the pay increase and incredible potential, she'd never have left) and I'm very proud of her. But, I'm (we're) just miserable without her. Ugh. She was our office manager and ran the office so smoothly and efficiently with one hand tied behind her back and both eyes closed. Now, we're scrambling to get through each day. What account does this come out of? Will payroll get done and will the staff get paid?? How on EARTH did she do all of this???
I want things back the way they were.
*pout*
I've been so busy lately. Work is a mess and there's so much going on around here and I've been having too many sleepless nights. Well, not sleepless, but sleep-not-enough. I stare up at the ceiling. Toss and turn. Close my eyes and pretend...but I just can't sleep! My mind is on overload. It seems like I can think so much clearer at night like that. In the morning when I recall the night before, the thoughts are all mumbo jumbo. Scrambled brains.
Tomorrow is Mother's Day. I dreamed about Mom again last night. I was sooo happy to see her! sighhh.. I've been thinking of her a lot. I have lots of thoughts I need to sort out. I was going to do that here, but I'm not up for it tonight. I'm already looking forward to tomorrow morning's cuppa joe.
First, though, to get some sleep...
posted by Anonymous G | 8:53 PM
4 Comments:
First of all, hussy, put some underwear on before you post your pic on the internet for all to see. ;)
OK- fo' real...
I hate those nights where you just can't shut off the mind. It gets worse because then you start to stress that if you don't get some sleep, you'll never make it through the work day the next day. Benedryl has become my dear friend.
I love dreaming about my loved ones who passed on. It makes me happy too- but then waking up to realize it was just a dream... well, it's painful sometimes.
I hope you had a great Mother's Day, dear friend.
Hehe, that 2nd paragraph sums it all up for me!
It sucks that one of your friends left your work. I don't think I'd deal too well at work if my offsider left. I already told him he's not allowed to leave before me.
I hope you had a great Mothers Day. You deserve every special moment you have.
lots of hugs,
E :-)
I'm with ya....I don't resist change--I resist BEING changed.
Unfortunately, I've not trained the world around me to get my permission first YET.
I continue to try--I think I'm making some headway.....
I'm also a welf-confessed delusional person!
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I'll hope your Mother's Day was a celebratory one!
I'm sorry to hear that you still are having a heck of a time at work.. that it's keeping you up nights at all... I can understand liking things the way they are! But all of this turmoil probably means growth is going to happen, whether you like it or not! lol
I hope you got a big hug from your mom in your dream and I hope you got big hugs from your kids in real time, on Mothers Day. Take care and keeping dreamin' -
a
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