It's a whole new year...
If anyone is still checking in, I'm writing in hopes to clear my head. Pay no attention, I'm just thinking out loud.
The holidays were a blur; a whirlwind of stress and exhaustion with a little bit of joy and warmth thrown in just to keep me going.
Don and I welcomed in the new year in Seattle. We stayed just about a week and it was really a great visit. I enjoy spending time with my sis and brother in law. Don's girl stayed with us and we visited the mom as much as we could. She misses her little boy now that he's down in California. Of course, I couldn't have been more thrilled about spending a few hours on New Year's eve with my long distance girls (and a couple of hubbies!). I'm not sure about the rest of you, but it truly feels like we're everyday friends. We've known each other for so long now, that I feel so comfortable being together. There's no awkward warm-up time. I'm thankful for our unique and very special friendships. Extra hugs go out to Lori. I hope you're feeling better, my friend. You know I love you. xoxo
I'm not one to make resolutions. I mean, really, who every sticks to them anyway?? But this year I feel especially compelled to reevaluate my life. I've been feeling increasingly dissatisfied with myself and my life. I'm not happy with myself because I know I'm getting in my own way of happiness.
I've noticed that anytime I'm away on vacation, I am happier. I am able to leave behind most of the stress and feelings of discontent. This trip, we were gone long enough that it was very noticeable when I came back to reality. While away, I spent a lot of time thinking about the way I've been and what things I can do for myself to make things better. I was able to think clearly and felt sure that I'd come home with a fresh start at my new improved attitude. I need to set goals. Not big lofty ones--just small, attainable goals. I'd be easier on myself. I'd strive for a more positive outlook and those around me would notice my departure from negativity.
Then we got on a plane and came home.
sighhh...
Bam. Much as I want to, I just can't climb out of my hole. I haven't written my lists. I'm trying to not be outwardly negative, but it's a struggle.
I suppose I should start that list. Create some goals. Follow through...
*pulls up big-girl panties*
Cheers and Happy New Year!
posted by Anonymous G | 9:38 PM
4 Comments:
First of all ((((((((((hugs))))))))))).
Ya know, I realised the same thing about myself recently and have forced myself into a habit of positiveness (is that a word?).
This...
Today is the beginning of my new life. I am starting over today. All good things are coming to me today. I am grateful to be alive. I see beauty all around me. I live with passion and purpose. I take time to laugh and play every day. I am awake, energised and alive. I focus on all the good things in life and give thanks for them. I am at peace and one with everything. I feel the love, the joy, the abundance. I am free to be myself. I am magnificence in human form. I am the perfection of life. I am grateful to be me. Today is the best day of my life.
...is the daily affirmation from The Secret website. It's now my desktop picture on my laptop and I made it up as my internet home page....so it forces me to read it - and I read it out loud to myself - every time I go near the computer.
It actually makes me recognise even more when I'm being starting to think negatively and it's easier to stop (most of the time!). Dunno if you want to try it. I know that feeling of finding yourself while you're away then losing yourself to 'stuff' when you get back. It's hard.
FTR, my only goal is to try to keep being positive. I am hoping the rest will fall into place by itself if I can do that one thing.
HAPPY New Year! xoxox
I like Eve's idea. Having something to remind you like that is a powerful tool. I don't remember what changed my life around a few years ago, maybe it was just a desire to not feel weighted down. I don't know. But I had to talk to myself and talk in a positive way, even though I had never done it before and certainly didn't believe it. I feel like I've come a long way. I hope some day you will be in a place where what we all see, as your friends, from the outside, the lovely friendly bubbly sweet caring person, is the one that you see too. That the fantastic life that you have - special hubby, wonderful children - is enough and the rest is all superfluous. I know we spend such a big part of our day with the crap sometimes, that it's hard to see the precious but even the mundane can be precious if it involves the people we love. Ok, I've babbled enough.
We love you!
((((((((((((((((G))))))))))))))))
Martin said you looked great, BTW. In the photo. ;)
Well, you know me...LOL
I'm with Eve and with Anne!
But it took me wading through a buncha 'noise' that life tossed in front of me to finally decide it really WAS just noise.
And HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Late, of course....but heart felt just the same.
I'm really, really glad you got the opportunity to go and do for the holiday.
We went and did an operation.
Yeah, yeah...somehow I think you got the better deal. LOL
((((( G )))))
I feel like I'm reading a book backward, so I'm forcing myself to start at the bottom. :)
It was sooooooooooo wonderful to see my sweet friend in person (egads- how long ago was that?) FINALLY.
As for resolutions- screw 'em. I broke my resolution (not going to ER this year) within 2 weeks. Feh.
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