out of sight...
Any time I even think about starting a new entry, my mind heads off in all directions.
I'm busy. I'm depressed. I'm out of touch.
I'm going someplace, doing something. I'm going to work. Coming home weary.
I'm tired of worrying about finances...my family...my health.
And, of course, the ever-present "Never Enough Time".
bleh.
At this moment, I'm getting ready to head to the beach for a short time, followed by lunch somewhere that's air conditioned. We are having a heat wave and it is hotter than H.E.DoubleHockeyStix.
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11 hours later. I'm home again. The beach was lovely. Warm sun, cool breeze, sand in my toes and the ocean's waves. I am lulled by the rhythm of the waves. A visit to the beach should renew me and refresh me so that I'm ready to face life's realities once more. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. The peace doesn't stay with me....
Gosh, I've got so much to say but just don't know how to say it. . .
If we could all meet for a cup of coffee or a bottle of wine once a week or so, wouldn't that be easier? (Doesn't that sound terrific??)
Thanks for looking out for me... Lori, you called me out 3 times - I can't ignore that! I miss you all and will try to keep a promise to myself to write soon. (Don't worry. I don't feel like I owe it to you. I owe it to myself. I am constantly getting in my own way!)
sigh.
much love....xoxo
I'm busy. I'm depressed. I'm out of touch.
I'm going someplace, doing something. I'm going to work. Coming home weary.
I'm tired of worrying about finances...my family...my health.
And, of course, the ever-present "Never Enough Time".
bleh.
Where do I begin? Yet, there's really nothing to say. I have a small group of long-distance friends. The few of you are the only readers of this here pitiful blog. You all truly mean so much to me. I know that the only way we can stay close, is to keep in touch. I visit your blogs almost every day. I am always in touch with you through your writings. How connected can you feel to me, when I'm silent most of the time? Lately I find that I'm not even commenting, though I have so many feelings to share when I read about your lives.
At this moment, I'm getting ready to head to the beach for a short time, followed by lunch somewhere that's air conditioned. We are having a heat wave and it is hotter than H.E.DoubleHockeyStix.
~~~~
11 hours later. I'm home again. The beach was lovely. Warm sun, cool breeze, sand in my toes and the ocean's waves. I am lulled by the rhythm of the waves. A visit to the beach should renew me and refresh me so that I'm ready to face life's realities once more. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. The peace doesn't stay with me....
Gosh, I've got so much to say but just don't know how to say it. . .
If we could all meet for a cup of coffee or a bottle of wine once a week or so, wouldn't that be easier? (Doesn't that sound terrific??)
Thanks for looking out for me... Lori, you called me out 3 times - I can't ignore that! I miss you all and will try to keep a promise to myself to write soon. (Don't worry. I don't feel like I owe it to you. I owe it to myself. I am constantly getting in my own way!)
sigh.
much love....xoxo
posted by Anonymous G | 7:30 PM
5 Comments:
I've been to that place more times than I can count ("I can't do everything, so I just do nothing."). I certainly know that we all don't want to make things harder but want you to know that we are thinking of you daily, even when we don't hear from you. That old saying about 'this too shall pass' is a valid one, hopefully sooner rather than later for you, my friend.
It is a sad day when the beach and the ocean does not help us come outside of ourselves and renew, as you say. Hang in there and I hope you feel our arms around you in a constant hug and support!
((((((((((((((((G))))))))))))))))
xoxo
anne
Oh G, how I wish we could go out and drink an ocean of wine and eat a boatload of cheese with all of our far away pals. Wouldn't that be lovely!
I've been thinking of you often, and am so glad that L called you out of hiding, if only for a minute. As Anne said so perfectly, I hope you can feel my hug all the way down there!!
MUCH LOVE!!!
Doesn't matter where you are or what you're doing, you're still with us all. Haven't we been through some stuff 'together' huh! We're connected coz we care.
If I had the brain capacity and organisational skills to work out how to get us all together for that coffee or wine (for a week or so!), I would make it happen.
I have no real wise words, but I really hope you find your sunshine soon.
Hugs n love
E xoxo
Yup, been there, done that. Looks like your online gal pals have shown up for you. Now you know we're with you in spirit.
We've ALL been there, girlfriend, and we've all been there for each other as we've gone through it.
I'm thinking of you (as always)
xoxoxo
*sigh*
It gets hard, huh?
Some moments are easier than others--and then there are those that make you wanna toss your hands up and say 'what's the fricking point'.
Seems I've been having more of those than I care to share--mostly cuz I'm not pleased I'm having 'em....that I'm allowing myself to stay stuck in the muck like a duck, oh ****, what LUCK! LOL
k.....that made me laugh...LOL
*love and warm peacefilled thoughts to you m'dear*
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